...My Flippin Eye Candy

I felt wrong for staring at him during the movie New Moon....until I found out he was of legal age

Taylor Lautner is so adorable and his nice body helps out too

...its because of him, I'm not upset about seeing that movie....:)

...Fav Song of The Moment

...heard this song one time...and now I can't let the day go by without listening to it
Before She Said Hi - Mario

"...something told me she'd be mine, and I knew it before she said hi...."

...Denny's Gets It In

Roc Tour flow...Wale swaying and swinging round...J.Cole hanging out
waiting for food and decided to freestyle while they waited

"..she wanted Jay-Z but this nigga will do..."
I'm just glad Wale didn't say "name Wale prolly know me from the youknow/rap"

SIDENOTE: ...i got almost 300 posts...and all but 51 were done this year...I almost have a post per day of the year..2010, I'm gonna attempt to post at least once a day...and I wanna add more personal type pictures and such...more ME memories.
Whoever reads this jawn/cares....thanks for finding me even the slightest bit interesting

...This Some Sadistic Shit

...but it's deep tho

...Praise The Lord Saints

...its offering time...

...and apparently he does this EVERY Sunday haha

...The Lord Does What He Wants

...If a 3 year old understands it...Why can't these adults...?
Besides the little girls prayer...I find it a beautiful thing that the parents have this prayer time with their daughter...If more families did this - who knows what changes could be made in our children because right now - our future looks bleak...When I get old I don't think I want these wet smoking, syrup sippin bastards trying to protect or save my life....

...Monkey See, Monkey Maul?

I feel sorry for Charla Nash because of she will never look in the mirror and see the woman she used to be...or see anything for that matter. I hope all the surgeries she will have to encounter be successful in giving her a sense a normalcy. I feel bad for the chimpanzee that had to die in the process....
...but seriously...why the fuck do people keep tryna make wild animals pets?
Got tigers in NY apartments and now this chimp spazzed and rips your face off
Yea..you think it's cool...you're just SO exclusive in the animal world...
Before you go finding your favorite animal from the wild...remember this woman

ORIGINAL STORY

CHARLA WENT ON OPRAH

...I'm in that gray area...
I want it - but I don't
I can get it - but I won't
...so close yet so far away...

I'm telling myself this time of self-reflection will be better for me in the long run....to establish myself alone instead of Ashley & [insert name here].
The goal and purpose is to find a suitable significant other....to not just "settle" for who wants me and looks nice for now and gain that person who doesn't need me to "compliment his swag" [because for one he won't use the word swag] but to simply be there for him and in return he do the same...that whole equal partnership thing people tend to not understand.
I'm not looking for a husband, but I am getting older and dating is no longer just for "fun" because at some point you're wondering if you'd ever see yourself being with that person for a prolonged amount of time...and life is too short to waste it on worthless people.

So as the fall kicks in and the winter is around the corner "boo loving season" as many may call it - I'm gonna actually network and such...get back into the swing of things on a human level and not just -what you got for me - ok I'm out - ...see if any of my attempts of self improvement can be put into effect and make it work.

I've gotten my practice kicks out on a few new people...see how they'd take to my personality
When the ex's resurface [as they annually do] I display my new attitude and it has gotten positive responses surprisingly...My never-ending need to talk shit hasn't died, but that's just apart of the package...I love it - damn near get off on it *shrug* ESPECIALLY when whoever the shit talk gets aimed has awesome comebacks...*swoon*

Finding the individuals is one thing, being myself 24/7 is nothing
....if/when I really believe I like said person is a whole battle in itself because I'll fight that feeling to the death JUST so they don't win and I don't have to admit it....
Even if they admit it first, I probably still won't do it because once you admit things like that...shit goes from cool and comfortable....to complicated and calculated....
I'm not gonna stress it though...I'm just gonna surround myself with good people [hopefully] and let time and fate help decide the rest...

...If It's Meant To Be It Will...

...Random Song of The Moment

I recognized I can't put Daykeeper up, without posting my other favorite song from Foreign Exchange which correlates....

Valediction

...I've been changed and rearranged and - it's not like it was before....and when the sun shines ill show her why she cant keep me anymore.....she loves me..