Tuesday, August 26, 2008

...The Rant

I’m tired…
I work hard everyday – just like everyone else
I don’t ask questions, I just do it.
Money, Independence, & Success are my motivations
My motto: ‘Hustle Now To Chill Later…’
…Inspirational - right?
When I explain these things I get acclaim of determination
“You won’t have time for anything,” is all I hear though…
…Didn’t I just state my goals in the beginning?
I’d love to have leisure time – but where would that take me?
An idle mind breeds trouble and idle hands wage war
So am I to be blacklisted for keeping busy?

I’m tired…
I’m human – just like everyone else
I’m imperfect in every way imaginable, but that’s me.
Love, Happiness, & Stability are my motivations
My motto: ‘If It Makes You Happy, It Makes Me Happier…’
…Sounds great - right?
When I say that, a smile that could illuminate the sky appears
“You won’t have time for me,” is all I hear though…
…Didn’t you just say you understood and respected my hustle?
I’d give my last because I thought of you first – but where did that leave us?
An idle heart could turn cold if you let it, and a cold heart can wage wars
So am I to be neglected because I’m driven?

Since I’m not around you bitch, but if I was always there you’d be quick to ask
“What are you doing with your life…?”
I’m not idle or stirring trouble, I’m getting my life in order
…but I’m getting criticized from all corners
What do you want from me?! – You know what…I don’t care
All I know is, I’ll be damned if I’m always at fault
I’m Fucking Focused – deal with it
…Man…I’m just tired

Thursday, August 21, 2008

...Such The Slacker

Ok so I got some catching up to do....
So I've kinda been banned from the internet at work. Basically all I can really do is put my hours in, check the work website, and all work related things...I Can't Even GOOGLE!!! So work has become even worse in the boring factor...but it's all good.
Now since June...
I spoke with random people from the past again (Winchell)
Got rid of other people after a year and some change (Ghana)
And ignored others just for the hell of it (Cali)
Then my birthday came :)
I had a little gathering at my house, then went to my cousins tattoo party.
Then Me & Tyk went to Rehobeth Beach which was awesome. An evil wave smacked us and broke my camera (but I got a replacement - no prob). I had lots of food, liquor, and my herbal medication. And the important thing i didn't have was DRAMA :)
I was the subject of a $500 bet, that I would become someone's girlfriend...but I shut that down long before I knew of it HA!
Out of nowhere I found another person from the past who now plays basketball overseas which is very awesome
A REAL out of the blue is a random old object of class distraction from XULA
...but I'm not complaining at all
Now it's August..summer is basically over. Tomorrow the family is going to Ocean City (MD) for the weekend for Daddy's birthday which should be awesome as well.
Oh yea, I also took more photos with a new photographer named Don. He's supposed to have shot with Caridee, Jaslene, etc...I didn't really care about the name drops though - I just wanted cute picz :)
Life has been pretty interesting...but for the most part normal and boring. I wonder what the fall season has instore for me because this summer in one word has been INTERESTING...indeed
-Ashley