Oh Yeah!!

Rejuvenation....

Short-Lived? - Maybe
Worthwhile? - Always

N.C. is becoming more of a reality than I believed it could be.
My only setback is blatantly knowing that my ex's girlfriend lives there...
...in some ways it could seem like I'm doing that shit on purpose - but in all reality I've been tryna continue my journey back to the south since before I even met that nigga...so it doesn't hold weight but, I know how perception is...

either way - I think I have my sissy on my side to do it with me

Talking to her today made me rememeber how much I used to enjoy blogging....how much I sometimes miss home....the friendships I gained right before I moved away to almost 'damage' them...
But such is life
Now life is opening new things for me...
I'm thinking more of the future than I ever have..

All of this came from not being in the Holiday spirit...
Inspiration comes from the strangest places....
...Return of The Mack...?
You Know That I'll Be Back....

...How Does It Feel

I was sitting in my living room with a couple friends....one of them was spilling her soul out about how terrible her most recent boyfriend just treated her and why they're breaking up.

He was previously married, they were in the workings of getting a divorce and in the meanwhile - he found and fell for her. They moved in together and everything - she was head over heels for every and anything pertaining to that man. Then - as always everything changed. Joking about being pregnant became a reality. That wife he wanted to leave so badly is now the apple of his eye and she is left in the middle taking all the stray shots plus the direct hits from him. Now because the divorce didn't go through its time to "work on things". The pain she endured mentally and physically I can't imagine...all I can say is "I'm sorry you had to go through that..." and lend a supporting ear...

I then sit and think of how...in my own life - I'm currently that ex wife. Hurting people I don't even know because of the decisions of a mutual individual. I'm not as bound to this nigga as she was....but it's just as sick how the past that you think you left can turn around and bite you and everyone involved in the ass.

I didn't ask for this.
I don't want to be hurt.
Karma is a very real bitch.
I'm sorry for any pain my memory or presence has caused.
And this is where we say goodbye...