...Black Friday

...I've never shopped on Black Friday..

I didn't see the purpose in it...getting trampled by crazy people just to get beat up over a few electronics that will become obsolete in a few months - fuck that

But....with online shopping counting for Black Friday sales - I believe I'm going to be all over that shit while I'm at work. I want a few electronics to furnish rooms and THAT would be the perfect time to cash in on those sales.

Electronics don't really bother me tho...I've had the same phone for maybe 3 years. I know the Blackberry isn't even 'cool' anymore - but it serves its purpose with me. 

I JUST got a PS3 - because of the Blu Ray and bootleg CD playback.

One of my boos went into Best Buy and went thee entire fuck off with gigs and TV quality and shit that I don't even know the meaning of....so I know I'm missing a lot as far as great quality...but I know I'm taking advantage of the shit this year

My main bitch devised this plan with me that we'd both buy shit from Best Buy and exchange it during work hours just to make them hating hoes gag - that would KILL...but that's not what its all about...we owe each other presents anyway

Whiskey is kicking in - night night

...The Way We Were

...last time I went back to Philly to visit, I realized - there's nothing left for me....besides my family of course

Every time I leave the city starting back with me going to New Orleans for school - I lose a person or a purpose to go back.

As the years went on my circle got smaller....Visiting was more fun than staying...

I miss the days of strolling through the hood and knowing everyone...finding fun in doing something there..WANTING to go out cause it was fun...but I don't get that thrill anymore...I lived and breathed that place....now I'm just proud to be from there

I went home in October and only saw one friend and stayed maybe 2 hours.....we're not on the same wavelength anymore....She's still the same nigga chasing hoodrat she was in high school...only difference is she's got a son to protect now.

My most recent best friend I don't even talk to because she resents me for moving away to find work. She would never fully admit it but she would never visit me when I invited her....even offered to pay for it - no budge. When I confronted her about it after she stood me up for my birthday - which we never miss - she had no real excuse....I wanted to go see her while I was home - but pride and knowledge wouldn't allow that....

My sissy doesn't even live in Philly anymore....she's up in the woods of Millersville or East bumblefuck like it, and she's OT working and learning like a muthafucka....so unless I was up for a minute or we caught the same weekend in the city - I wouldn't see her either

All the other niggas I know are either dead or in jail....

I love my city, really hope that God bless it....but I always knew I'd never stay there - I just miss the way we were

...My Mine

I didn't like her at first....didn't find anything special about her songs off first listen....but I also wasn't listening....

Then - this song played in my car [the haven where most songs go from obsolete to epic] ....and every once in awhile it appears in my head by itself.

She's come a long way from spelling words all through her songs with No Love

I can relate sometimes....

 

All of the time i cant forget to - try to forget you in my mine....
What do I care for? You are not there anymore....I was not careful, and it's all your fault -  you let me fall
What are you here for if you're not there when I call...?

...Favorite Song Of The Moment

The theme song to Luther on BBC

...I just liked the feel of it....then I played it in my car VERY loud....and stared at the sky [random] and I'm mildly obsessed with it....I don't see how someone could NOT like it seriously...

It's a British Trip Hop Band that's been out since late eighties - early nineties. Off this one song I've downloaded every single one of their albums and collabs and such and I like em....

:: Paradise Circus - Massive Attack ::

It's unfortunate that when we feel a storm,
we can roll ourselves over 'cause we're uncomfortable

Oh well the devil makes us sin

But we like it when we're spinning, in his grin.

...Long Time No Type

...still a Maryland resident...

got yet ANOTHER job....in August...and making it do what it do so far

I've made some friends I enjoy the company of very much - doesn't hurt they're also my co-workers as well. I'm doing better at not being completely ANTI, which is my default setting usually

I have developed a strange but satisfying addiction to string cheese - don't ask....I just love it

The love of my life Idrissa Elba has this show called Luther on BBC - LOVES IT....caught it On Demand at like 4 in the morning [don't ask] and watched all the episodes so far

I've FINALLY gotten into Dexter ...shit is insane and addictive

I'm back on my flippant - say whatever thee fuck pops in my head with no regard - kinda shit with everyone now....no point having couth since I'm not tryna impress anyone but rather force them to see how I act on the regular - take it or leave it hoe.

I still love my Eagles even tho The Dream Team is giving me nightmares....

I've been slacking off on "real" blogging by using Tumblr - but my sissy Titi was talking about bloggers the other day and was listing the ones she likes...and among the dope writers she put ME *tear* ...mind you I haven't done shit in months - but the fact someone still cares/pays attention made me say "I need to get back on the ball...I may not have some major fan base - but there are some people who care about what I may have to say...*shrug* - I fucks with it

..that enough of my recap....I'll be entertaining again soon enough...

...Growth

...It's hard but it's necessary...
My New Years Resolution was forced into play right when the year began and I can feel the change.

All my hurts, I'm letting them go...slowly - but surely...they're doing no good with me
I had Bilal's "Airtight's Revenge" album and :: Slowly Surely - Jill Scott :: on repeat for a month and some change

I decided in turn I'm just gonna show and spread more love, even to those that caused the pain.
Being hateful and spiteful would do nothing but focus my energy on them which should be focused on me and my well being....and then still be hurting in the end....no REAL satisfaction would come. By continuing to do right I'll be better...

I'm in no way going to pretend I am healed of all malicious thoughts and feelings....this can take many years to completely manifest itself as a habit...but I'm trying - that's all I can do
For now, I think I'm doing a good job