...Can't Effin Sleep - UGH

Up late because I slept in and drank coffee [yea...it's my own fukin fault...whatever]
Watching a Lockdown marathon...episode I saw already was on, and I just rambled in my SK...whatever. Hoping the computer light will lull me to sleep as I type...
-Ashley

Why did you do it?
Why did you leave this way?
I still talk to you often, see your face occasionally - but not as often as I should.
Did you think you were invincible?
...Even Superman has Kryptonite
What thoughts were going through your head?
...Couldn't of been any because that would've meant you were thinking
It's your life no doubt, but it's not just you that's suffering
Nothing could be that great to take your life and throw it away....
Years pass that you'll NEVER get back and the only one to blame is YOU
The judge didn't help you, the guards ain't set you up - it was a decision you obviously made alone.
You could've talked to me, your kids, and your whole family but you robbed us of that time
Now the only way for us to even remember you exist are the collect calls and letters you send
It's your life I understand, Go ahead - Be A Man...but it's not just you that's suffering
If we move on we're wrong, but for years you've been gone
I can take it all in stride, but out here you're not alive
...locked away until further notice in prison...

...My Flippin Eye Candy

All guys always post half nekkid photos of the girls with giant asses or boobs that are "models"...
...so I'm gonna post MY eye candy...whether it be a model, actor, or even a regular person I know or saw...if they catch my eye they come here. My current fav.....Keston Karter :)

Love it!! Google him, get his calendar, find his Myspace...whatever...support the sexy
-Ashley

...Watch Me YUUUUULLLLL!!!!!

Kinda funny... just had to do it

Theee newww souljaaaaa boyyyy dance is soooo siccckkkk..it's as easy as ridin a......


Dick how u feel bout soulja boy's new song?

...enjoy
-Ashley

...Ay Shawty Lemme Holla Atcha

For most females, it's a regular thing for you to walk down the street and at some point some guys may try to talk to you - no big deal. In this documentary they get really into the deeper thoughts of it all...like how we may feel we're constantly being judged or appraised, disrespected by the manner of which males decide to approach us, and even the danger of ignoring or refusing said person. It also shortly speaks on how others notice that our white counterparts don't behave in the same manner and how an outside person could perceive that kind of behavior. I didn't think it was a big deal, but after hearing them talk..kinda made me think...*shrugs*
Here's a Youtube clip of it - I'm off to go shopping and eat P.F. Chang's :)...enjoy
-Ashley

...Fav. Song Of The Moment

People can always hate and have their comparisons...but there are none. They're two different people, but they both sing this song in their own form of utter perfection.
[Ashley Service Announcement: Please, stop comparing people or putting down an entire movement because you so happen to dislike a specific person. The beautiful thing about life is there are choices and options. If there is something you don't like you have the option to listen to it or not. Then you make your choice and be done with it. Follow that and leave the negativity out of it, it'll make things alot better...]
It's been revived because of the movie Cadillac Records - but I've always loved this song. With both versions I'm posting "I'd Rather Go Blind", originally sang by Etta James and resung by Beyonce....enjoy
-Ashley

Etta James:


Beyonce:

...Blogger Won't Let Me Leave Today!!!

I just was forwarded an awesome game...
It helps with hand/eye coordination, and is fun all at the same time
Click the link below to play...I'm sure you'll enjoy
-Ashley

See If You Can Hit The Fool With Your Shoe

...Are You Suffering From BOONDOCKS Withdrawal?

I know I am, but I've been recently watching it's Youtube channel...CRAZY!!!!
I got one of the videos from there on my Christmas post "Happy Birthday Black Jesus"
Click the link below for the channel

Boondocks Bootlegg!!!

MY Favz are the ones with John Witherspoon and Black Jesus...too funny
-Ashley

Watch, Subscribe, Enjoy BITCH!!!

...High Times Vol. 4

Ain't posted one of these in awhile, and one occured same time last year...pure herbal hilarious enlightenment...enjoy
-Ashley

High Times

Vol. 4

Tyk

12/25/2007

Today's Topic: Getting Naked

While inhaling herb...I came to the revelation that...Males are always quick to drop everything when it comes to getting naked. Why the fuck are males that are fat with DDD titties and asses bigger than Buffy's so comfortable with they bodies and some broads aint? Why a male can just walk around shirtless no matter what they size or the weather, but the most free-spirited outspoken female can be the shyest of em all to even wear a two piece.

You know how males be wanting to seduce you, they be pulling at your shirt and then you tell him to stop you'll do it yourself...damn.

So you end up making him work for it..get the shirt off [ah ha forgot the tank top]...get that off - find out you got on 2 tube tops 2 bras with a rubber band on top. Now you get to the pants...[ahhhaa got shorts on, then boyshorts and 3 pairs of underwear]..ok now you cool...

It's crazy we need to appreciate our bodies as much as males appreciate theirs...

To all my weed smoking haters, I do this shit because I like it not because I need to relax because it's one of my everyday hobbies...If you don't like this shit dont read it - or even better dont talk to me...Fuck you......Fuck you

Oh..and Merry Christmas Nukka...From PINKY Nukka!

...Merry Christmas...

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!
Christmas was a beautiful day filled with happiness and family togetherness. Again for a holiday...a first in a long time, the only people here were actually family. It was a calm and relaxing day with my family. Just me, my parents, grandparents, and aunt with her husband. Then later on my cousins came around, we put something in the air - watched a movie and ate more food [greedy ass lol]. I received more presents than I ever imagined getting and I'm like ULTRA thankful, especially because the gifts will ALL go to immediate great use :). Saturday I'm going shopping for myself and peoples' gifts and tomorrow I order my bestie Bran's dream shower curtain for her apartment.
Didn't go party tonight like I wanted but I'm going out tomorrow with my cousins to a club, I believe named Plush. Should be fun...and interesting. I'm in a real good mood and I'm gonna work on maintaining this.
Also...never forget the real reason for the season [JESUS fool!] Gotta give the major thanks where it is due...
Happy Birthday Black Jesus!


In honor of the holiday, my favorite Christmas song...


Happy Holidays!!!! :)
-Ashley

...Randomnezzzzz

After much discussion, we finally put our tree up, of course the later we put it up the longer it stays up...so it'll probably be up until mid February. Yesterday I hung out with my Dad, I took him for a few runs and then we all got food for the family. We picked up my Christmas gift [I finally got a real Ipod instead of just the little shuffle] so my computer won't crash on me from all the music I download, and my dad bought me a pair of boots I wanted. We then went to Famous Dave's for the food for the family and just chilled.
I still haven't gone shopping for ANYBODY...but that's because I shop after Christmas. I don't try to get people things I THINK they'll like, I go out with them and get them things I KNOW they like because they just said so. It always works :)

On another note...
With alot of the recent news and headlines, it's really got me thinking. It's snowing in Las Vegas and New Orleans but it's like 60 degrees over here in the middle of December...anyone who has ever read the Bible would know that those are some "telltale" signs of the end of the world. Another one is one that I'd really like for it to NOT be true, but we can never be to sure. The man who has brought the country together in ways we never imagined, could possibly be the Anti-Christ? He's supposed to be a man that we all love and could never think anything wrong of, and the parallels are quite scary...I'm not saying it's definite but it sure as hell something to look out for. In thesee times we can never pretend to b so sure of anything because it can all change in a split second...Just a thought
-Ashley

...I'm Effin Sick!!!

Been sick for the past two weeks...sux
...Couldn't even do anything which drives me insane
But that helped me catch up on some movie time...Divine quality bootlegg of course
I watched Seven Pounds [good movie & message]
Madagascar 2 [funny...but not sure it's for kids]
Eagle Eye [pure madness]
Cadillac Records [I know everyone hates Beyonce for whatever reason...but watch the movie!]


Also found this song...apparently it's going to be FOR Rihanna, but it's NOT her singing on this. It just became my favorite song of the moment...it's called Bitch I'm Special...awesome - right?
...enjoy
-Ashley

...Evaporate

Lying in the grass staring at the clouds, trying to figure out what's wrong with me. Watching them slowly glide by contemplating - why can't I?
Life is the biggest adventure we could ever embark on but it seems like it has so many rules - why can't we just be free?
Free to roam, free to dream, free to love, free to 'be', free help, free care, free food, free land...I mean it's not really OURS anyway...
Who said society had to be this way?
I just wish I could slowly glide by and never wonder why because I'm free...
Free to roam, dream, love, and be as happy as that carefree cloud in the sky knowing there's absolutely nothing wrong with me....

...Vonnie Got Married!!!!!

An earlier post mentioned my wonderful cousin was getting married. It happened October 20. 2008. I was a bridesmaid and it was a fun and beautiful thing. She looked so happy the whole day...she said she'd never smiled so much in one day!! We had the Wedding at Childs Memorial Baptist Church, then the reception was at a small hall down SW round Woodland Ave, then we all went to the after party up North...I forget the clubs name. We actually started partying while we were taking pictures and it kept on until early in the morning. It was really fun and everyone was really cool. Picz tell it better....enjoy
-Ashley

Yea...we're kind of a big deal

They did it!

Kimmie

I know..I'm cheesing - eff you

Yaz

Eb

E$$

He looks so happy

The bride & her children

...Fav. Song Of The Moment

...Not only did I neglect this, but I slacked on my Google/Youtube kick of the day. Since I didn't feel the need to find every bit of info on anyone at the moment, I'm starting another category...hence the title.
Feeling this song very much...and not just because I'm a grown ass Chris Brown groupie [hehe]
No but songs hot - awesome concept...atleast in my opinion - which is the only one that matters here :) ....enjoy
-Ashley

"You say it's Now or Never...I pick NEVER - we can't be together, so calm down..."

...Confessions Of A Commitmentphobe

I was thinking long and hard about myself. I noticed in the past couple of years I've kept all prospects at arms length even if people on the outside noticed the chemistry or atleast that my current showed an interest in me. It was then after speaking with a few friends I declared that I possibly turned into a commitmentphobe. As life goes you try things, they don't always work, and sometimes you get hurt - but sometimes some wounds don't heal as quickly as others or they open other wounds that you may not have fuly dealt with from the past as far back as childhood. Then after googling it and seeing it's really a phobia I came up with this 3 part series as a creative way to kind of get the emotion out and also help me cope and move on, because if not I'll stay in the same vicious cycle...C.O.C. part one...enjoy...

Arachnophobia? [scared of spiders] – Nope
Acrophobia? [scared of heights] – Not at all
Anthrophobia? [scared of people] – NEVER
Coulrophobia [scared of clowns] – Ok, maybe a little
But my phobia is commitment.
Sounds crazy right?
Normally you’d believe females LIVE for commitment and only dread NEVER finding it
…Not me
My brain seems to translate commitment into the ghosts of relationships past, the visual of present unhappy souls, and the terror of the future if one sudden decision is made.
It’s synonymous to settling
Settling equals death
Death equals a routine falling into place, and life as you KNEW it – is over
It’s that unsettling feeling of what will be given up in order for this partnership to sustain and fear it would be all for nothing.
Come on, people can barely stick with a hair color or a pair of shoes, much less another person – especially when there’s so much variety out there
Marriage & Stability all sounds grand
Who would deny “true love” and a pretty ring on their hand?
Everyone in the world has a soul mate – right?
The promises of lifetime devotion, affection and happiness – what more could you ask for?!
But if that’s broken, what happens next…?
Am I just destined to continue to give my all just to watch it crumble beneath me?
I’ve rearranged my name, my ways – shit my whole life
I’ve listened to the pretty words and felt the tender touch, only to find out he bailed to see if the grass was greener with a cheap thrill or regardless of how much time and effort I put in, it’s never enough…
The nerve of that ungrateful son of a bitch!
…and Reversal is a motherfucker!
All that time invested, now to start anew…again
Trial & error is how we figure out what works best
It’s also the easiest route to grey hairs and stress
Apparently I see “LOVE” is just a fly-by-night emotion
Dedication seems to be only for the older generation – and even they’re slipping
I’m tired of having my heart ripped out
I don’t want to constantly have nagging feelings of frustration, distrust and confusion.
I’m terrified that the only results will be yet another sad and painful story
I don’t have the strength for it…
If I could actually encounter a person who is genuinely honest and not full of shit, this probably wouldn’t exist.
Stop feeding me poetic lines with no substance. Don’t tell me things you think I want to hear. I don’t even want you to tell me I look nice when I obviously look wrecked, because even little white lies can turn into a whale story in 10 seconds flat.
When I was younger I did dream of one day having the whole family ordeal
Now it’s just a painful conclusion that a similar real life situation is either a bad decision with permanent ramifications or a fleeting ideal from the Medieval days….
2BCont

...The Catch Up

Ok...
Summer is gone and apparently - so is fall. Obviously that also means November has passed and we have a new president...my ideal husband BARACK HUSEEIN OBAMA!!!!

Our First Family

BALLIN!!!

Never before did I pay such close attention to a candidate. Of course in the beginning the intrigue began when I realized a person of African American descent was really running and it wasn't Al Sharpton or Jesse Jackson. With the initial intrigue came the trance he would literally put you in while he so eloquently spoke of change and regulations with the swagger smoother than a well-seasoned pimp talking a girl onto a corner. EVERY time he spoke I listened and learned something. I even believe I'm smarter just from listening to him. With his historic win I'm overjoyed and I'm ready to see how he will attempt to handle the GINORMOUS mess G.W. Bush left for him to clean up. I also truly hope that with the state of the country today, and personally speaking for my city with all the senseless violence, school drop outs, mobs of uneducated drug dealers, wannabe rappers and any other male falling into all of the general stereotypes - they can look at Obama and want something more out of life beecause there's living proof that it's attainable. Young people and families are now really hearing their children if they say they want to be the President. Yes We Can became Yes We Did. Now there's no excuse about the man because now "The Man" is one of us.

Christmas is about a week away which is pretty cool to say the least, and of course the week after will be New Years :) Not exactly sure what I'll be doing...probably hanging with my Neumann homies in DE w/ Tyk. Next year though, I know for sure I'll be celebrating in a whole new venue. I may actually go to the ball my aunt and parents go to. It's this big executive thing that could cost up to $500 a ticket...Everyone is dressed up real nice, open bar and buffet....swanky.


With my internet ban still in effect (not like they were ever going to uplift it) my search to find something to preoccupy my mind has ended. I now just WRITE - I know real epiphany huh. I occasionally write pieces but I'd only really have the urge when I'm either really angry or upset. With all of my free time on the job it gives me time to just think on alot of things, and with the thought process comes my writings. Anything inspires me now - a question someone asked me the day before, even a random thought derived from a song I was listening to. I also now kind of write what I'm thinking or how I feel in a more literary sense as to put more depth into that moment instead of just writing a run down of what happened/made me mad/etc...
...Speaking of New Year's...I've decided on a resolution. Normally every year I say the same one [lose weight/exercise] but never follow through. As of now I know I don't have the determination or motivation to do it, and I'm not a bad size as it is so for now I'm no longer going to stress over that. My new resolution will be to say YES to everything. I got the inspiration from the movie of the similar name "YES Man", and I actually find it to be a good idea. You never know where life can take you if you say no to the opportunities that could arise if you just say yes to something. I know I'm good for being slightly paranoid or should I say suspicious of people and their motives and I'll say no before I even know what their asking...so I'd like to change that. I was helping my co-worker with an english project and one of the topics were to write your own obituary, and when I started to write I didn't feel I had enough highlights to put in it to show what kind of mark I left on the Earth, and in peoples lives - so I gotta change...take more risks, and worry less about the consequences of my actions unless it's of a malicious nature [of course if they deserve it then its sooooo necessary]. Soooo...yea...that's my thoughts on that
Well, I'm really going to update this more often so that I can post more things and just keep it updated without having to do these catch up posts that can last 4everrrr.
I'll be back with something :)
-Ashley