...Morning Randomnezz Round Up

Soooo....
I finally joined Twitter [luvnmuzik215].
I figure if people on CNN use it, its gotta be something good right? So far its quite amusing. It's like a never ending Facebook status update.

I got my review from my day job for the year, they finally realize I'm effin awesome and gave me a raise - and for that I am thankful since every little bit helps.

My teachers have all been convinced that its in their best interests to let me pass out of my classes...now on to the next round

I strongly believe there will be a XULA/N.O. reunion in July. I haven't been there since the hurricane so it be an awesome trip and cool to see all my old friends again after all these years. It's also triple awesome because it falls with my Birthday, which is a holiday in itself. Anyone I know that's still down there will be alerted once I book everything.


On the down side, got in a fight over the weekend. It was atleast for a good cause - helping my bestfriend out of a bad scene. Ended up getting my knee checked again and sprained my pinky, the bestie got a boxer's fracture. All I know is sometimes certain males just shouldn't be allowed to associate with the outside world until they seek professional help...

'09 seems to be keeping a record of being a very interesting year so far. Whatever comes next, bring it on...
My phone is gonna die now cuz I'm on the internet n haven't charged my phone since Saturday lol...pz

...Fav Song Of The Moment

I Sang My Heart Out In The Car w/ This Song Today...So I Believe It's Time To Come Here
It's A Beautiful Song By Daniel Merriweather including the effin awesome voice of Adele
Water & A Flame
...Enjoy

...I Couldn't Sleep

Thinking of What Ifs, Why Nots, & Maybes til early in the....

Morning...
Sun peaks through the blinds warming my skin alerting me it's time to move - but I don't want to...
Awakening...
I slowly open my eyes to be immediately met by yours...smiling back at me
Dreading...
The thought of leaving your side motivates me to complete my tasks as a means to reunite quickly
Evening...
Daylight hangs while we exchange glances that resonate loud & clear to each others senses
Enjoying...
Your company is a gift I'd love to receive everyday and twice on a Sunday
Reciprocating...
All the love you constantly show me. I love you times INFINITY...and that's still not enough
Loving..
Your familiar smell and the way you can tell what I want before I even think it
Admiring...
My precious piece of perfect imperfection, placed together with precision...all for me

...Sickkkkkkkkkkkk

King James on 60 Minutes

...Fav Song Of The Moment

I happened to glance at a person's photo and this started playing in my mind...and it won't leave - it is what it is
...I Guess I'll See You Next Lifetime...
...Enjoy

...My Flippin Eye Candy

**DOUBLE FEATURE**

First off...I've luved Aubrey Drake Graham since Degrassi...so his bandwagon is full - Thanks
But anyway, He's an actor, rapper, turned singer...all I gotta do is see him dance and I'll be completely swooned lol. I'm moving to Canada soon too...

Then there's Kid Cudi...
Maybe cause he's the "Lonely Stoner"...I don't know...but this Kanye West cohort...is sexy...can't help it...*smile*

I'm in luvvvvvvvv....

...I Just Want...

-Clarity
-To know that I'm not wasting time with my life at this moment
-To not second guess myself
-To figure out what I believe...and stick to it
-To know in my HEART that nothing and noone else is made for me
-To stay HAPPY
-To not feel the way I feel

...I just want to know


...only way to gain more knowledge is to ask tons of questions...the quest continues...

...Sunday Thoughts & Rambles

...I had this friend back in high school. Everyone told me not to associate with em...MY name would be drug through the dirt by being around em, my own dad told me nothing but trouble and drama followed em - but that was my best friend.
I was there through all the drama, issues, life turns, life changers that brought them up to a ceratin point...but I was always the wrong one. Maybe I never saw where I was making the mistakes but to me whatever I did was dumb and no reason for a blow out or ending of a friendship.

"You never speak first to me when we get to the bus stop.." rendered a six month non speaking clause...wtf?...silly high school shit - back when at that moment EVERYTHING seems like a big deal, even when it isn't


You're a little older now, some lives changed more than others...but that's still my best friend
We go on a trip to celebrate my birthday. Random turn of events like a malfunctioning room and a rip off hotel freezing my entire account and not just the amount due and incidentals, preventing me from spending money and therefore having fun. No prob, since we drove my car we'll just go back home, get a refund, thereby unfreezing my account, have a big dinner my mother cooked and tons of fun with the money we saved...wrong

We came back on a Friday, I called my bank and the hold the hotel placed on my account wouldn't be released until Tuesday. That kinda worked since that's the day I return to work and I inform my best friend. So also on Friday some of my friends from out of town came to visit me for my birthday, so I spent the time with them doing sightseeing touristy things and when we went out it was their treat because it was my birthday. We had the dinner at my house that my best friend didn't attend although they live right around the corner because they were cooking as well...no prob.

So on my last day of vacation I dropped my friends off at the train station and just having a relaxing final day before returning to work. I then get a phone call from my friend asking me wassup with they money, why am I ignoring em...blah blah blah. Now I'm confused because I swear I told em I'd give em the money on Tuesday. Now they're yelling at me about her mom's electricity being off like it's my fault and just bitching me out over something I can't help. I then inform her I'm not sitting on the phone to be yelled at and banged. She then calls my house phone leaving messages on the answering machine cursing and carrying on and saying I ruined this friendship over the money she would get back from the refund. Demands her stuff back and makes me rummage through her room to get mines...somehow it even got to the point where her mom really asked me if I stole the money! Even threatens to take me to court over some money I was giving back to you plus interest anyway. [Mind you it was $90]. I'm feeling all sorts of disrespected by some people I've treated like family and even better at times. They proved to me that "Friendship becomes Henshit when it comes to money" even when I'd spend money that I didn't have on my best friend...So from that day on, I've refused to speak to them. I'm good for holding grudges...and this one has been on for a few years
[long story but I needed to get it off my chest for good]

I on a whim sent her a Myspace request just to see what the response would be. She questioned my motives, but my only response was "No motives - just did it." She said "I haven't acted like I cared in years.." which is true...but better late than never..I had until one of us died to do it.
My internal reasoning is for myself. It's like my own sign that I'm letting the grudge go. I'm not trying to be best friends or anything again...just one of my steps of trying to be a better person like I promised earlier this year.

Once I got my phone back I called every number I had in there to try and start calling people.
I'm designating Sundays as official "Call Back" days. Talk to any and everyone regardless of how much work I have. Only way people will keep communicating with me is if I communicate with them. The psychic told me I'm a clear individual but I know I gotta work on getting my clarity out to everyone.

Me & My Dad had a conversation not too long ago about something parallel to this...
It was basically about the defense mechanisms my dad instilled in me because of his pain and with me being an only child. I'm guessing it causes me to instinctly push everyone away when I feel they're trying to hurt me in any way. But if I push everyone away there will be no one left and I have to realize...I need people. I can't do everything by myself, even if that's how life has played out for me so far, at some point I have to confide or depend on someone else and pray they follow through and even if they don't it's a lesson learned. I just really gotta learn to trust people...

It's a slow uphill battle, I've got years of dead skin to shed...but I'll continue to pursue the goal - wish me luck...

...I Think That Bitch Cursed Me!

...So the psychic told me I had a bad spirit following me...and either she put a fuckin hex on me to give me an evil spirit or because she called it out she pissed it off.

After talking to this woman, I continued hanging out with my bestie having an awesome night out sipping on Happy Juice roaming the city. As the night winds down, somehow my knee decides to give out...not just once - but four times! All four times I land on the knee and the fourth time I was trying to walk down some outdoor stairs and fall...fun right?

I get in this huge fight for no fuckin reason right after it, get ready to call for a ride...no phone.
While checking my pockets I realize my debit card is missing as well...now that's two things to cancel...whatever

Now I'm in the house the rest of that weekend with unexplainable bruises/marks and a bum knee that I thought would just work itself out...nope

Wednesday was my deadline for medical help and the knee wasn't better so I'm forced to go to the ER to be informed its sprained and I gotta wear this giant monstrosity of a leg brace until I see an orthopedic doctor...that I can't see even though I have an appointment, until my primary doctor decides to send the specialist the referral.
Now I gotta go all the way up Germantown to tell this bitch that has nothing to do with this why I wanna get my knee checked out to come back down Southwest to get it checked and then go back to work...all of which is why I DIDN'T want to go to the hospital at all...effin hate America

Then after coming from the ER I go to work and park where I normally do when I can't find normal street spots. At the end of the day I find out an hour b4 I come outside I got a ticket for being there when I park there damn near all the time!

I'm just waiting for the next shoe to drop because bad shit happens in three's and I'm not looking forward to it.

I swear she did it on purpose just so I had to come back to her for that fuckin cleansing...Miss Cleo scam artist ass...
But do believe if more shit happens I may have to holla at her...she started it so she's gonna finish em off....

...Just Wow

Cosmetic Ingredient GML Protects Monkeys From AIDS Virus

A new kind of vaginal gel prevents sexual transmission of the AIDS virus in monkey studies.

The anti-HIV ingredient in the gel is glycerol monolaurate or GML. It's already FDA approved as an ingredient in cosmetics and medicines.

"The results are very encouraging. They point to a novel avenue to prevent sexual transmission of HIV," study researcher Ashley T. Haase, MD, head of the microbiology department at the University of Minnesota, Minneapolis, said at a telephone news conference.

The surprise finding that GML can block HIV comes from basic research showing that the AIDS virus gains a foothold in the vagina by taking advantage of the body's immune system. Immune responses to the virus draw T cells — the white blood cells HIV loves to infect — to the site of infection. Without T-cell recruitment, HIV loses its grip.

That's where GML comes in. The antimicrobial agent affects immune responses and breaks the chain of events that let HIV spread through the body.

"We thought if we could modulate the immune response at the portal of HIV entry, we could block sexual transmission," Haase said. "[Colleague] Patrick Schlievert's work with GML showed that it had many properties that might block HIV expansion and systematic spread."

Haase, Schlievert, and colleagues gave five rhesus macaque monkeys daily GML treatments before putting 200 infectious doses of deadly SIV — the monkey version of HIV — into their vaginas. Another four animals got a gel without GML.

The four animals not given GML got AIDS. Those treated with GML showed no sign of infection during the short-term study, although one of the five animals showed signs of infection several months later. But just as HIV drugs with different modes of action are more effective when mixed into a drug "cocktail," Haase says GML could be mixed with different kinds of anti-HIV agents.

"GML could be part of a combined strategy with another vaginal microbicide, such as PRO 2000, with a different mechanism of action," he suggests.
Ingredients of GML Anti-HIV Gel in Common Use

GML is found in breast milk, Schlievert says, and it is used in many cosmetics and in medicines taken orally or used on the skin. And recent studies show that GML kills many different kinds of germs — including vaginal yeast infections and several different sexually transmitted diseases, said Schlievert, professor of microbiology at the University of Minnesota.

"GML is presently being considered as an additive to tampons because of its ability to interfere with bacterial growth, including the bacteria that cause toxic shock syndrome," Schlievert said at the news conference.

For vaginal use in the monkey studies — and with an eye toward future human use — GML was mixed with KY Warming Liquid, an over-the-counter product widely used as a personal lubricant.

"What was done was to combine two FDA-approved medical devices to create another approved device," Schlievert said.

However, Schlievert said GML has not yet been tested for long-term human use.

And there's a lot more work to do with monkeys before GML gel is ready for human tests. That will have to be done before human studies of GML gel for HIV prevention.

Haase, Schlievert, and colleagues report their findings in the March 4 online edition of the journal Nature.

...So I Was Talking To This Psychic

And I was waiting for her to say something off the mark, but she didn't...eff what anyone thinks. I'm not going to live my life by it but it was pretty deep.
All she asked was my age and looked at my palm
She told me I didn't like my current job and that my school plans are a great idea
All things medicine would fit me :)
She says she sees marriage and children in my future
She says I'm a very clear person, and I'm getting irritated people aren't understanding me
She says an ex I keep going back to is holding up my progress
There's somebody who I have chemistry with but we can't communicate no matter how clear I am
And there's someone who likes me but is intimidated by me
There's a jealous female in my life as well
I've been having a series of bad luck going apparently...and out of left field she tells me that there is a bad spirit that has been following me since I was younger that's causing it and I needz me a cleansing!!!...yea whatevz
But for the most part, it was an interesting expereience and I probably wouldn't object doing it again

...He Still Sexy Tho....

Rihanna's full description of that now infamous evening has been released.
Possibly soon coming is the photo the day AFTER she took the picture for the police - that's when the actual swelling starts and the injuries look 10 times worse.
I'll still support Chris but this isn't looking good, and since he's not saying much there's nothing else to do but believe he's an asshole for kicking her ass like that.
I'd still need to know the whole situation to place any full judgement, but it doesn't look good court-wise.
Now it's gone on a new tangent since their supposedly engaged or married now after spending time in one of Diddy's homes in Miami recently after the incident.
Rihanna is supposed to be testifying that she had a part in the whole thing to help because she "can't live without him..." If found guilty he can get up to 9 years.
Guess we'll see what happens....

For the warrant hit the link:

http://staging.radaronline.com/exclusives/CBWarrantRed1.pdf

...Freakum Dress Was My Hype Song LOL

This just seems like my answers would be interesting...And I can jam my ass off at the same time :)

1. Put your MP3 player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS



1) IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Ready or Not - The Fugees

2) WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Yes - Beyonce

3) WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
ChampagneChronicNightcap - Solange Knowles ...you bout right tho

4) HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Warning - Biggie ....damn - thats my shit tho lol

5) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Bedtime Stories - Slim ...seriously?

6) WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Feel So Good - Remy Martin ft Neyo

7) WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Walk Like An Egyptian - The Bangles ...LMFAO...

8) WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Blue Magic - Jay-Z

9) WHAT IS 2+2?
Can't Let Go - Anthony Hamilton

10) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Down & Out Freestyle - Lil Wayne

11) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Nothing Even Matters - Lauryn Hill ft D'Angelo ...cot damn

12) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Happily Ever After - Case ...PaLEEse! LOL - I'll see what happens

13) WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
I Refuse - Aaliyah

14) WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
The Message - NaS ...ain't that deep

15) WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
What Means The World To You - Cam'Ron ...OMG..no..lol

16) WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Halo - Beyonce ...effin right I'm a cot damn Angel!!!

17) WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Strange Angel - Keri Hilson

18) WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Lie About Us - Avant ft Nicole Scherzinger ...like foreal tho?

19) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Take The Box - Amy Winehouse ...naaaa

20) WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Body Marked Up - Willy Northpole ...but I LUV tats...

21) HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Dirt of My BAPE - Lil Wayne

22) WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Knocks Me Off My Feet - Stevie Wonder

23) WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
I Love College - Asher Roth ...that song is funny tho

24) WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
I Nominate U - Fantasia

25) WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Betterman - Musiq ...how cute

26) WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Like Glue - Sean Paul

27) DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
That's Why You're Beautiful - Beyonce ...well damn, who the eff is that?

28) IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
It Takes Two - Rob Base & DJ EZ Rock ...I'd jam more? - sure!

29) WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Naughty Girl - Beyonce

30) WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS NOTE AS?
Freakum Dress - Beyonce

...Point Blank, Effin Period

I Hate Snow...ugh

We're 'supposed' to get around 7-14 inches. I doubt that number, but its pretty bad outside. Its been snowing since last night, the wind is pretty strong and most schools are closed.
Unfortunately as usual, banks are open and we're sitting here like some retards staring at the wall and each other. We've had maybe 20 customers since 8 this morning.
I'm spending most of my time jamming to my music, playing Solitare & Pinball.

Getting to work wasn't too bad but I got a ticket because Broad Street is a 'snow route'...whatever the fuck that means, it wasn't that way last time it snowed n I got a $51 ticket. I got outside just in time because the cops were rollin down the street giving tickets and towing cars away. I'd rather have the ticket then find out my car was missing though.
Only good thing is I don't have to pay it :)

Now if you've never been to South Philly, that is the worst place to not have a parking lot or have to park on the street in general. I swear this section of Philly is over-populated, damn near everything is 2hr parking unless you have a permit, then they park in any direction they feel like it because "its South Philly."

I can't park next to the sidewalk because its 2hr parking, but I can double park next to an already parked car to block them in and turn a 2 lane one way street into my parking haven....whatever

Anyway..on another topic, my new co-workers finally asked if I was mixed with anything because I'm such the light bright.
Everyone questions me whether it be my complexion or even my name...doesn't bother me tho, just thought it was funny.
...oh well guess ill finish playing pinball