...2 Steps Forward - 30 Steps Back

I noticed a Trending Topic on Twitter today for #RonnieGeneWallace
not sure if it made the top...but I saw it, and I'm saddened.
No matter what year it is, there's still alot of hatred in this world....


Four men in South Carolina have been charged in the beating and lynching of this 42 year old male.
We're alot closer to 1899 than the future they swore we'd have by now...

ORIGINAL STORY

...Fav Song Of The Moment...Again

Ok so I sang Gaga all morning - but how dare I forget the song I played on repeat bout 5 times yesterday...and almost relapsed again today at work...I love almost everything he does...but this my song...
...got me wondering how u feel, wondering what you will or won't do
is it real love - you maybe the one that I'm waiting on....

Is It Real Love - Ryan Leslie

...Fav Song of The Moment

I've adored this song since I heard her perform it at an award show - obviously the specific show isn't important cause they all suck now....but I digress - since the show I went on a mad search for it and haven't stopped listening to it since....she's a deep individual but she writes some awesome songs.....

..could we fix you if you broke...? and is your punchline just a joke...?

Speechless - Lady Gaga

...My New Year's Resolution

...this is one I know I will keep because I thoroughly enjoy the "art" of pole dancing...its like my hobby almost. It actually takes alot of strength and skill to to some of that shit...not as easy as it usually looks. The tricks/ poses and things you can do with it are sooooo awesome.
My resolution is to sign up for a weekly or however often class, do some pilates to help with my flexibility and before the year is over - be able to emulate or at least do something close to this routine and better

This is a vid by Althea Austin

...Awesome Song Of Life

I already have a mild obsession for Ghostface....but this is the greatest song EVER haha
Stapleton Sex
...this aint no R&B dick this hood - my slow jam dick is on Thursdays...
...don't touch me...

...I'll Kick An Old Person For Disrespecting Me

...unfortunately this old person is my Grand Father and I've got to have respect for him regardless...

It's bullshit to me since respect is supposed to be earned in any other situation why doesn't this rule apply to him?
I tell my family everyday this nigga is being all kinds of spiteful...they say "..leave it alone, don't say anything - he's depressed..."
His depression was brought on by his own stubborn ass need to ignore all the doctors orders, refuse to go to his treatments, and curse out his physical therapist just because "he can - he's old".
Now he has no mobility of his left side, which would've been avoided HAD he complied....its his own fucking fault
He does nothing but stay in the house all day because he pissed off all his friends by not trying to do better after he got sick and then refuses to go to any senior outings to at least get fresh air because "he don't wanna be around all them old people"....muthafuckka YOU old too dog...now he's alone
He is the EPITOME of the old people I swear I'll kick they cane from or trip down some stairs...because they feel since they're old they're entitled to be disrespectful and mean cause they're suffering - fuck that dumb shit

He's blessed to have a family who basically doesn't believe in putting our own in nursing homes and will take care of you by any means necessary. My mother has damn near reconstructed her entire house to make it suitable for him to stay and easy for maintenance in the event he was to make a mess...
...but this nigga just think its fair ground to just seek and destroy new territory...
You have a bucket to spit in...but you'd rather just do it on the floor
You have your own bathroom/adult diapers/utensils in case you can't get up...yet you'd rather purposely sit in the kitchen, STRAIN at that and shit your pants and give everyone your ass to kiss..THEN knowingly have the shit on him and trail it throughout the house...fresh done hardwood floors and you smearing shit around?
Me or my mother cook a meal to last a few days and he up and decide he's not eating that and request special shit - nigga you know you wouldn't have selection if we put yo ass in Mercy Care...you get your meal of the day and shut that shit up or starve..

Ever since I been back at the family house I've been noticing his lil mannerisms, and he always try to act like he's senile but longer I'm around him - that man knows EXACTLY what he's doing..."like apathy...mocking the people taking care of him knowing we'll continue to do it anyway..."
Makes it worse is he knows my mother - his own daughter is fighting her own battle of sickness yet he feels entitled to make her do a bunch of unnecessary shit for the fuck of it

I understand it is a drastic thing to have to come to grips with feeling fine in your mind but your body doesn't agree...to go from being a workhorse to basically worthless fixture...being ill in general is a hard thing to accept - but I don't feel torturing your family that's trying to help is going make your arm/leg work...its not gonna make your friends love you again...its not gonna turn back the hands of time and make you fucking young again...all it's doing is making you a miserable old bastard that I'm now beginning to resent...My father ignores and refuses to be in the same room as him....And his own daughter is fighting in her mind if he's doing these things on purpose to keep a good outlook on helping him

..I'll keep my mouth closed in respect for the family, I won't haul off and bring a reign of evil on his ass and teach his ass a lesson - but I sure as shit don't have to like it...and I don't...

I swear if I live to be old and I become ill, I'm writing in my will I would like to be euthanized.
I hope my family/husband/children will understand and just value my wishes.
If I am of no use to myself or others, I have no point hanging around taking up space and air...
It sounds harsh but I've witnessed plenty family members slowly deteriorate for the sake of going naturally - it then becomes a burden to the rest of the family to take care of them in their final days...hiring nurses - filing for PCAA support...all sorts of run around shit...
Get me out the way and move on with your lives - I lived mine and I'm no longer a help
...thats just how I feel...

...Perfect Song for Philly Snow Storm '09

...I despise snow, and I have no boo to be snowed in with
but its still the perfect song for the current situation...

...Christmas Miracle

I'm not a very religious person....but this is deep...

...Best Song EVER

Now we should all know the original...Bitches Ain't Shit...

...classic shit - I know

...but Ben Folds has changed my life. With singing this song....I have fully recognized...Bitches really aren't shit lol

...Random Songz Double Feature

...now I know Snoop has far more important and classic songs than these.....but you can't tell me they're not thee shit....


I'm Through Witchu
...don't hit her...just shake that hoe...

or my uber fav...
Fresh Pair of Panties

..I've got to know, or you can show....me...

...Fav. Song of The Moment

Alot of people are shocked to realize they actually like this song....but I adore it

..I like to make myself believe that planet Earth turns sloooowwlllyyyyy, its hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep - cause everything is never as it seems...

Fireflies - Owl City

...Alice In Wonderland

A link posted by Blunted on Twitter who also has a dope BLOG

..its basically a beat/tune made with some sound bites from the movie Alice and Wonderland...
Its by a Youtube user FAGOTTRON
He's done a few other ones, so if yu hit the link you can check it all out, but I've decided my fav is the Alice jawn...
...I don't care what you think - this shits hot...

...How You Like That

The Vatican has just recently released an official music playlist selected by the Pope himself. Among the selections were music by Mozart, Muse, and Tupac Shakur
Changes

...Sigh...

...Happy Belated Turkey Day - hope all went well. I cooked majority of the dinner this year...nobody died so I believe I did a good job [ Fried & Rotisserie turkey, stuffing, mac & cheese, fish stew, sweet potato pie, green beans...I forget the rest...]

I think because it's the end of the year shits trying to get they finally hits in...people are fucking with me more than usual, testing my patience and kindness...probably even trying to get me fired...but I can't let them get to me...whatever is meant to be will be...I will prevail regardless, even if I fall to the bottom I won't stay there long...I'm destined for greater...

Not all is terrible...

I've made acquaintance with a few people I believe could be considered friends...
Knowing how hard it can be to try to get to and become close to me - I find that a major achievement for myself and those individuals...hopefully they will be a blessing to my life and I to theirs...

Christmas is coming...but as I've gotten older, holidays don't really excite me much anymore...the time together is always good though...I just have a Charlie Brown approach now I guess. Maybe one day if I have children the thrill will return because of the joy on their faces

I won't take such a long break...long as my internet keeps working....
always gotta have a song...here's a song I like from Diddy & Em...otherwise known as Dirty Money featuring Drake

...loving you no more..I just - I can't - I just can't be loving you no more...I love you more than I love myself
[Hurt - Dirty Money]

...My Flippin Eye Candy

I felt wrong for staring at him during the movie New Moon....until I found out he was of legal age

Taylor Lautner is so adorable and his nice body helps out too

...its because of him, I'm not upset about seeing that movie....:)

...Fav Song of The Moment

...heard this song one time...and now I can't let the day go by without listening to it
Before She Said Hi - Mario

"...something told me she'd be mine, and I knew it before she said hi...."

...Denny's Gets It In

Roc Tour flow...Wale swaying and swinging round...J.Cole hanging out
waiting for food and decided to freestyle while they waited

"..she wanted Jay-Z but this nigga will do..."
I'm just glad Wale didn't say "name Wale prolly know me from the youknow/rap"

SIDENOTE: ...i got almost 300 posts...and all but 51 were done this year...I almost have a post per day of the year..2010, I'm gonna attempt to post at least once a day...and I wanna add more personal type pictures and such...more ME memories.
Whoever reads this jawn/cares....thanks for finding me even the slightest bit interesting

...This Some Sadistic Shit

...but it's deep tho

...Praise The Lord Saints

...its offering time...

...and apparently he does this EVERY Sunday haha

...The Lord Does What He Wants

...If a 3 year old understands it...Why can't these adults...?
Besides the little girls prayer...I find it a beautiful thing that the parents have this prayer time with their daughter...If more families did this - who knows what changes could be made in our children because right now - our future looks bleak...When I get old I don't think I want these wet smoking, syrup sippin bastards trying to protect or save my life....

...Monkey See, Monkey Maul?

I feel sorry for Charla Nash because of she will never look in the mirror and see the woman she used to be...or see anything for that matter. I hope all the surgeries she will have to encounter be successful in giving her a sense a normalcy. I feel bad for the chimpanzee that had to die in the process....
...but seriously...why the fuck do people keep tryna make wild animals pets?
Got tigers in NY apartments and now this chimp spazzed and rips your face off
Yea..you think it's cool...you're just SO exclusive in the animal world...
Before you go finding your favorite animal from the wild...remember this woman

ORIGINAL STORY

CHARLA WENT ON OPRAH

...I'm in that gray area...
I want it - but I don't
I can get it - but I won't
...so close yet so far away...

I'm telling myself this time of self-reflection will be better for me in the long run....to establish myself alone instead of Ashley & [insert name here].
The goal and purpose is to find a suitable significant other....to not just "settle" for who wants me and looks nice for now and gain that person who doesn't need me to "compliment his swag" [because for one he won't use the word swag] but to simply be there for him and in return he do the same...that whole equal partnership thing people tend to not understand.
I'm not looking for a husband, but I am getting older and dating is no longer just for "fun" because at some point you're wondering if you'd ever see yourself being with that person for a prolonged amount of time...and life is too short to waste it on worthless people.

So as the fall kicks in and the winter is around the corner "boo loving season" as many may call it - I'm gonna actually network and such...get back into the swing of things on a human level and not just -what you got for me - ok I'm out - ...see if any of my attempts of self improvement can be put into effect and make it work.

I've gotten my practice kicks out on a few new people...see how they'd take to my personality
When the ex's resurface [as they annually do] I display my new attitude and it has gotten positive responses surprisingly...My never-ending need to talk shit hasn't died, but that's just apart of the package...I love it - damn near get off on it *shrug* ESPECIALLY when whoever the shit talk gets aimed has awesome comebacks...*swoon*

Finding the individuals is one thing, being myself 24/7 is nothing
....if/when I really believe I like said person is a whole battle in itself because I'll fight that feeling to the death JUST so they don't win and I don't have to admit it....
Even if they admit it first, I probably still won't do it because once you admit things like that...shit goes from cool and comfortable....to complicated and calculated....
I'm not gonna stress it though...I'm just gonna surround myself with good people [hopefully] and let time and fate help decide the rest...

...If It's Meant To Be It Will...

...Random Song of The Moment

I recognized I can't put Daykeeper up, without posting my other favorite song from Foreign Exchange which correlates....

Valediction

...I've been changed and rearranged and - it's not like it was before....and when the sun shines ill show her why she cant keep me anymore.....she loves me..

...Random Song of The Moment

I saw these guys live in NY with Titi
[sidebar: check out her blog...true hiphop fiend in the flesh and dope female
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...to be completely honest, she is the one who made me fall in love with them just by playing THIS song...which happens to be her favorite song as well...
If you've never experienced the music that is Foreign Exchange...you're missing out in life music that could probably get you through anything or even put you in a better place while going through it....
The group which mainly consists of Phonte from Little Brother and the producer Nicolay is a good thing...I approve this very much
...right now - this song is on repeat..once you listen, you may repeat it too....
DayKeeper...

...and when the sun rises, he watches over me....

...Fav Song of The Moment [city love]

It's raining...the breeding ground for slow jams, watching movies, trapping yourself in the house w/ whoever you so choose...
...this has been my uber fav artist and song since forever...but it fit perfectly today...I had it on repeat...now if only I had an actual reason to play it - haha
Imagination/ Crown Royal Suite - Jill Scott

...so this is making love...?
...so thick like - Crown Royal on iceeee....

...What Are You Guys Doing? - EATING BRAIN!!!

Me & Titi are going to Grand Central Station to prepare for our trip home...and we're greeted by this....

...The Great Wall

Cleaning out my room back in July, I came across all my random papers with the shit I write when I'm upset or just in general to clear my brain. Majority of the stuff is either sad or a self-description - which makes sense. Looking back on old stuff, I wonder where my mind was at that moment and although it may not be impressive to all I wonder where the fuck did I think of this shit - throwing out SAT words of the day on bishes. I probably found them at a good time since I'm en route to evolve and leave that mindset in the past with the bullshit situations that helped coerce those feelings...Ah well...better to write out the pain than to try and seek revenge..

Right now I have no idea why
...but I want to just cry
Last time I shed an honest tear was two years ago because my Grammy died.
For years I've told myself emotions are a weakness humans extort for personal purpose
So even if my insides burn from holding in pain - in vain - I'll smile and inform you I'm fine
My feelings could be stomped on numerous times but I'll take it in stride yet never confide - that's why you'll never hear from me again...
Sharp pains shoot through me to remind my subconscious there's something hiding - whether I acknowledge it or not.
No amount of ignorance can be bliss when it comes to your own feelings.
Now I feel like I'm falling deeper into an abyss of denial, distraction, maybe even depression.
Instead of put myself in a situation that can end badly I'd rather avoid it all together.
There's a less chance of losing when you take yourself out the game
I have my eyes on my prize but the cost is too steep
I feel destiny is trying to lead me to complacency
To settle for what I can get and make the best of it
"Pickings Are Slim/ Beggars Can't Be Choosers" - but I can't divulge when all I meet are losers..



Bitch...
Term of endearment or nickname for a dog
A state of mind or a self-defensive fog
A Bush mentality - shooting poison filled daggers rapidly
Always attack the other before they can get to me
Making it clear I'm not one to be fucked with
I see through all of your bullshit so save it for someone who cares...
Bitch...
Life sentence or powerful asset
Never again stepped on or over - that's the past
Yet there's nobody walking by my side for comfort, support, or to emit pride...
Those cries are muffled by that strong power I rev like the engine on my minds boat that sputters to a halt in the ocean of my thoughts...


...like...where do I come up with this shit....?

...*Flavor Flav* Wooooooow....

...Yo...boul was wasted as shit...and came all the way out for more?!
...just watch it...

Worst Shopping Run Ever - Watch more Funny Videos

...Twitter Love...

Juelz mackin bitches off Twitter...but hey - internet dating happens all the time...right?
But it's funny to get that moment of silence when people ask you "How'd ya'll meet?"
Gotta feel alil embarrased to say Twitter...but now if they can do it...bet you everyone will think they can [if they haven't already]...
But now a days really...no matter where you meet em, they'll still end up being crazy LOL
...and any Santana groupies...let it be known you're not talking to him..you're talking to his assistant - his girl Kimbella says so

Thee Best Halloween Costume EVER!!!

..pretty much explains itself...shit's hot

...Just Jammin

...She Always Knows How To Hit A Nerve....

...The more I think there's a chance we're making progress, she always some out of left field with some bullshit. Even in a time of trying to have family unity and support she can sucker a way to throw a nail under the tire.

I check my Facebook to see I have a message from my mother - who mind you is in the next room, which basically was a backhanded Thank You for helping/supporting her during this time even though she knows I don't like or love her, have better things to do, and hopefully wont be a bother too much longer. Almost on cue after I read this she walks in and I go right in asking straight up what the fuck was that about...but she has no answer no matter how many different ways I ask her this question.

Yes, I told her I don't like her levels of priorities, how she handled raising me, and that I consider my Grammy more of my mother than her - just being honest, but I've never told her in any form that I hated her...she's still my mother. No, We don't have that mother/daughter "bond" like I see other females have, but I do still care about her and her well-being...always have even when I felt it wasn't reciprocated. So in my mind...that thank you was rude and a slap in my face on too many levels.
All my life I'm fighting to make you happy so you can show that you love me or any form of attention for that matter and now you want to pull some shit like that baffles me. I atleast thought we had grown, matured, and understood each other during these recent times of close proximity - but apparently I was wrong.

To be honest, this saddens me deeply and I don't know how to handle it.
All I ever wanted was someone to care. The main person I KNOW did, is no longer alive.
And people I have now that possibly do - I push them away when I feel like this because I'm so used to trying to cope alone I don't know how to do it any other way.
I feel stuck in a vicious cycle of giving but never getting anything in return or having it turned around to where I'm wrong for whatever I do on account of what you did first...
...I just needed to vent...

...Pure Genius Sarah

We all want to save the world, so lets hit em where it counts - church

...Random Song of The Moment

Was having a convo about the ways dark liquor can have major effects on people. One of my faults is if I have a significant other, it tends to make me turn them into what I call "victims". My nigga Mr. Lampkin said I made it sound like hunting antelope and in it's own small way it is, since I see what I want and I'm sure I'll get it. After my subtle hints and not so subtle hints to those who know me I like to believe I then take the bold yet melodious approach like this song to finish the trap...so Let's Take A Walk with Raphael Saadiq

...The Flower In The Road '05

...You never know the way the roads of life will take you, so you walk aimlessly through it trying to memorize landmarks along the way. Things continue to be unfamiliar until you notice a beautiful flower you passed earlier. You admire its beauty and continue on your journey until you seem to pass the same flower again...and again...and again.
Finally you decide you need to get past this to further on your walk of life, yet the flower intrigues you so much you stay. You admire the shape of its petals, the unusual colors blended beautifully together, the seemingly perfect thing in the midst of the monotony of green.
You reach to pick the flower and the closer you get the more it changes: the colors fade, the stem grows thorns, and the petals shrivel as if it's protecting itself from you. You pull back and the majestic flower stands. You think of ways to get this flower without it changing.
You take a picture, but the flower doesn't show up on film.
You try and paint it, but the colors don't do the flower justice.
You try to cut the stem but the blade doesn't even leave a mark.
You sit and wonder should you stay and keep trying to pursue the flower for you to have and cherish forever...or continue through life without it...

...Favorite Song of The Moment

First heard this song when one of the dancers on So You Think You Can Dance did their short performance to save themselves to it. I downloaded it that day and somehow put it in the wrong playlist, blah blah blah blah and didn't hear it again until about 3 months ago. It's a simple yet beautiful song

Let's not fight, I'm tired can't we just sleep tonight?
Turn away, it's just there's nothing left here to say
Turn around I know we're lost but Soon We'll Be Found...

"Soon We'll Be Found" - Sia

...Why Women Have Sex

After taking a survey with some women..there are actually 237 reasons why women have sex and it's not about romance or pleasure. It must be embedded in females heads that sex can get you all sorts of things or make you the master without even trying to hard...cool article I was led to by @DACHESTERFRENCH actually....random - I know. Check the article below...and if you get the chance get the book with the same title written by clinical psychologist Cindy Meston

WHY WOMEN HAVE SEX

...Pure Talent

In the bathroom...just singing...no studio, AUTOTUNE
just a camera and a song in her heart

...Fav Song Of The Moment

Been playing this song quite often at work and in my car...dunno what it is about it - but I like it
Regardless of all thats going down I still luvz me some Chris Brown and here's either a leaked song off his album or just some extra treats :) Fatal Attraction

...Short Rare Glimpse Into History

A small clip of Anne Frank looking out of the window at a nearby wedding...taken only a year or so before she and her family were forced into hiding.

...Bitch You Dumb

By now everyone should've heard about the Anita Teldaldi story. Family adopts a baby of another race, then 18 months later terminates the entire thing because they "didn't bond". Her whole theory was to show you can still love a child as your own even when they're not.
First...what the hell kind of bonding was she looking for
Secondly...bonding goes both ways...maybe you didn't appeal to the child for him to open up to you the way you'd like or maybe that's just not his thing. Some people can't even bond with the children they give birth to - so now you're going to use adoption as a trial and error project....?
Raising a child takes work whether the chils is from your womb or not...the child she received was left on the side of the road...so it's possible he could have early on-set emotional detachment issues. Who knows...but by taking him into your home then sending him away again can't be doing anything better for this poor child's outlook on life or self-esteem...now you've probably made him feel so unwanted - worse than being left on the side of the road since at least those parents didn't leave a lasting imprint in his mind. He KNOWS you, he's gotten accustomed to you and your lifestyle and you've messed up his feeling of stability and consistency. Hopefully whatever family has him now will have more patience or be a better fit for him.

...Old School Mowry Twins

...you know this was yo song...I just never knew Tia & Tamera were in this group haha
This song/video better than some of the bullshit we hear now-a-days...smh

...Dear Mama

...So Effin Rude

Sometimes all an artist wants is respect from their hometown...
..Wale is the one person besides Tabi Booney who is really trying hard to rep D.C. and display its unique style of Go-Go music to the nation. So - why would the hometown radio station start throwing shot at him when he's technically trying to do THEM a favor. He wants D.C. to be musically respected, he wants to bring them home a GRAMMY and all you can do is refuse to play his songs and disrespect the man...?
I know radio stations still have a serious case of Payola fever running rampid [which is why the unfortunate listeners hear the same 20 songs everyday]. Radio is supposed to be the outlet of the people and a beacon of a city...instead we get things like this....click the link to hear the foolishness
Shame on you 93.9 WKYS

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...This Is So Sad...

I understand that she committed a terrible crime...but given her circumstances - I don't believe she should've gotten life without parole plus four years?...now she's 29 and knows the error of her ways and she has no chance of redeeming herself...

...You Can See Chelsea's Halo

...It's everywhere - but I thought it was very pretty
Chelsea has cancer and she basically dedicated the song to her. Crowd was crying and such
...see....Beyonce does love the people...

...The Impossible Dream

Just random I wrote down while listening to co-workers, Twitter, my brain, and family complain about the state of the country's finance and employment issues


At a young age we were always told "You can be whatever you want to be!"
Go to school, work hard, and you'll always accomplish your dreams
...Happiness is just a hop, skip, and a jump away...
So you follow the protocol to end up depressed anyway
Spent all this time learning something I'll never use
Spending money that I didn't have to supply those tools
All so I can be in debt to a system that won't hire me.
If I do manage to slip through the cracks
One way or another they'll find a reason to fire me
Budget cuts, discipline problem from 5 years ago or I was a half second late
All so they can save face while I can't afford to pay for my place
Now it's back to the drawing board, sleeping on my mother's living room floor,
Rummaging through my things in trash bags 'cause I don't have a room with drawers.
This country should be immaculate, makes me wish I was an immigrant.
If I didn't speak English maybe I could get health benefits
Bitch I'm the one with the Masters Degree & Ph.D
While you hop off the boat right to work without shoes on your feet
I'm the motherfucker that's overqualified, like its a sin for me to wanna survive
Meanwhile niggaz that cant read or spell is out here living well
Now if I hit the streets it be just my luck the cops would grab me on the same day
Now instead of making bread I'm tryna make bail and its like the dumb shit never ends
I got too much respect to become a stripper or a hooker but they stay making money off these men with no women or morals and it hurts...
I shouldn't complain because there's plenty worse off, but I don't want to despise going to work
I just wanna be happy one day, the smile on my face natural and permanent
...unfortunately its not just a hop, skip, and jump away...
They lied

...GROSS!!!

YOOOOO!!! Look at this creature some children found in Panama City....

They can't verify what it is. They think it could be a hairless sloth or of course...what we always think things are we don't previously know about...an alien...I hope they find out soon

...[city love] Straight Outta Philly

Ok so first off...I somehow allowed myself to get sucked into going out every night since Wednesday - but it was ALL good. It all started on a Saturday though when I went to see the performance of MURS and the hometown group WRITTENHOUSE.
They're a phenomenal group that will win you over just by their live show. They don't use a CD with tracks, they crank the beats right on stage for the people. The lead rapper CK doesn't spit that usual "bang bang my gun hang and swang" shit - it's just real unadulterated Hip Hop and we need more stuff like this out in the world. If you've never heard of them check the Main Website
and as a treat...grab they latest mixtape SUNSHINE PHILADELPHIA VOL. 2
I PROMISE you'll love it...it has the Ashley stamp of approval
Don't believe me? ...catch some live footage

One of my fav songs Inna Lite

Indeed check them out...and Philly support ya fellow natives...in this world of crabs tryna pull each other down - somebody's gotta help each other up...

..Shower Scene Gon Wrong

...fuckin...DJ Jay Skillz [hit the name to follow him on Twitter], told me to watch this because he made a reference to it during the day...I'm a bit scared of this man...Someone stop this man from crying - PLEASE

...My Flippin Eye Candy

You probably know him from the Tyler Perry sitcom "Meet The Browns"
or also as Eva Pigford's fiancee

Either way...all I know is this dark handsome gentleman is muthafuckin sexy

...point, blank, period.....BITCH

...Get Yo Ass Outta Here...

..so how bout them EAGLES?!...I know it was just the first game...and it was against the Panthers...but STILL...they killed em. And yet again McNabb has injured himself. He broke some ribs, Andy Reid has high hopes he will be ok to play soon...I also hope so since Kolb looked like an asshole on the field and Vicks suspension isn't over yet...lets get it together and keep that momentum tho!

As the whole world knows, the VMA's had their wonderful moments of randomness - but I swear they need to get a handle on the security of the stage...niggaz shouldn't be able to just stroll up there when its not they time, or somehow climb up the decorations like a prior year...
This years incident involved none other then everyones favorite Temper Tantrum thrower - Kanye West

People may agree with what he said, but it wasn't the time to do it. He could've just let Taylor have her moment of winning her first moon man and leave her be. Maybe if someone asked him about his feelings later- fine...but things like that are to be expected from Kanye...like the European Music Awards..

But I give him credit - he knows Who & Who NOT to do that shit to...anyone else would've probably knocked the shit out of him on stage. But he's not the only one who ever felt they needed to speak at the wrong time...I know ya'll ain't forget Wu-Tang is for the chil-ren? And that nigga was at the GRAMMY's...

...Quagmire - Giggidy Giggidy

A Philly Club song for the greatest pervert on television
Saw Uristocrat posted it...found it amusing and had to do it
Click the name for his Twitter and also Stumble Upon his website

...Thundercats HOOOOO!

...Apparently...this is how the Thundercats would go if remade in 2009
They even got a Twitter

If Thundercats had Twitter

...She Giving Piff A Bad Look

Either she lying about what she smoked, or she just don't need to do it
Apparently this woman was too high to drive, so she does the logical thing by making her 6 year old drive her car .... From the looks of things...she on some shit

If you gonna do anything...
1.) Your child shouldn't witness or have any idea of your extra curricular activities
2.) If you can't get a handle over whatever it is you do and have the coordination to get you and your child home - you shouldn't of done it in the first place

It was HIGHLY irresponsibile of her in many ways and it's things like this that make people thing badly on people who do partake of the Marijuana. Whatever they decide to do with her is well deserved.

FULL STORY HERE

...Fav Song Of The Moment

It's raining in the great city of Philadelphia. What better song to play?
Yes I know New Edition did the original...but this one is SEXY!!!...I love it
Can You Stand The Rain

...Yes, Jesus Loves Meeee

...I found this hilarious.
The black people jam the fuck out tho...they remix is hot haha
And we gotta remember our Latino friends as well!

Obama Time

So everyone in the world who loves Obama was outraged when it appeared his extended hand was blatantly ignored by the Russians, but apparently - pointed out by @Cirle1ne - it was not a snubb, but basically Obama introducing everyone. He's not required to shake hands because he's the host and just doing his job as one.
I keep watching the video in hopes that it can appear that way, but I'm not only looking at the mannerisms but also Obama's facial expression. To me it looks like he's disappointed and at one point it seems his hand is waiting for a follow up extend from the other party...but if that's not the case - I won't dwell on it....can't always assume EVERYONE is a racist

Speaking of Obama...
Today he wanted to give a speech to the youth for their technical first day of school.
I personally don't understand the problem, and why sooo many people found it to be a bad thing and any means for controversy. I believe I read that some networks even refused to air the speech because it would cost too much money to rearrange the regular television line-up. They wanted teachers to show it in class when he began - which makes sense since those very students are who he's speaking to - but that's a problem.
We right now have a President who had inherited probably one of the most disastrous problems in recent times to clean up, everyone is ready to crucify this man for trying to make not just our but HIS country a better place, and continue to fulfill the idea that America is the "Promised Land." One of our major problems is our school systems..Obama just wants to reach out as much as possible to encourage these young people to strive for what they believe in, make goals for themselves and accomplish them, to not be discouraged if something doesn't click for them as quickly as others, to not allow themselves to constantly be considered "the problem child" and excel even when others say you will fail...whats so wrong with that?
Despite what some people think, these children that you think don't need to hear another Obama speech probably do because THEY are the future...those same illiterate bastards the system is letting pass just so they don't repeat a grade for the 5th time could be your illiterate ass doctor prescribing you whatever the fuck he feels// the uneducated politician writing all of your laws because it's not about what you know it's WHO you know how much money you have, and the "grind" you made to get to the top// your future IRS or SSI calculator who will steal your check when you get older if it even still exists because "mayne, they ol n i gots shit Ica do wit dat".. or just plain ol Bob up the block who dropped out of school and yes ya'll grew up together, but he's hungry and he's gonna rob you
You complain children don't have a positive role model, and we find an individual who is striving to lead by example and you bash him for it. We find a President who is willing to let the world in on every policy he creates, damn near any document that passes through his fingers, and wants YOUR input on how we can all save this country...and you wanna say he talks too much...takes up too much TV time? But if he just did shit without saying anything then you'd have EVEN MORE shit to say
I didn't hear anyone complaining when Bush dumb ass was on TV talking about a war and he didn't even know the details...or even how to read the damn teleprompter...ugh..

..I swear some people won't be happy until George W. Bush comes back or McCain gets in office.
Anyone that has sooo much to say about Barack should ask themselves if they could even fathom being in his position...you have to clean up someone elses mess then try and keep your own agenda in line within 4 years with no money on a budget of possibly trillions of dollars...
I find it unfair and downright rude how they're treating this man...but it comes with the territory
..I just hope soon people will realize the BIGGER picture..
In case you missed it, here's the Back To School Speech

...I Hope She Gets Better

...it's just REAL sad what drugs can do to people.
She had a promising career and now, she looks like a bum broad that could clean up well
...she flying off the handle on boul, cuz she knows they know who she is
I just hope the guy driving isn't really gonna kick her ass....
It's circulating that she's addicted to Crystal Meth, but apparently it's also known she is mentally ill [schizophrenia] and refuses to take her medication
Get Better Maia Campbell...

...Never Let A Crackhead Sing At Church

...the title speaks for itself...

...She Gettin It In

Madam CJ's fav playlist of songs until her songs have been copywritten and such. Her at a recent open mic night and as always - she performed like it was her own concert...but that's just how she does it...gotta prove yourself even when nobody is watching.
A relationship theme with the songs:

*Ordinary People - John Legend
*Need U Bad - Jazmine Sullivan
*Next Lifetime - Erykah Badu
*Rock Wit U - Michael Jackson

...Say What You Want

It was the wrong person to say it, since everyone thinks she's a spotlight hungry retard..
...but to be honest...she's RIGHT
Despite the ways Castro & Hitler used their intellect, you can't deny that they were indeed brilliant people.

Castro is noted in his own biography to be intellectually gifted and from a wealthy family. You can't be stupid to have total control over an entire country for almost 50 years! With his brain power and stubborn determination he embodies the qualities [when used correctly] equal a great leader. No - everyone doesn't agree with his tactics, the things he felt were right did harm to his people, but you can't tell me YOU can hold the power of a country whether through war or fear without being overthrown

Hitler who wasn't rich or a scholar, wanted to be an artist, didn't finish school and gained an interest in politics. To go from a broke nobody to the voice a a vast group of people whom he had influenced - is brilliant. What he lacked in education he made up for with Public Speaking and the power of persuasion. Yes - his views led to a full genocide of a religion/people...but YOU can't tell me you can cause a movement as great and drastic as his. He started his own political party and made it the majority, he started a war that took over the whole world basically...

I don't condone either of these individuals actions, they brought great devastation to those who were the victims of their rule - but in hindsight you CANNOT deny their genius - even if used for diabolical reasons.

Here's Aubreys moment before the other people got upset and cut her off

...Random Ish..

With the material I hear from this group this video slightly doesn't surprise me...but in general it's very...deep. Mr Christian made me watch it...he'd never heard music from this group before so for him showing me this tidbit of newness [for me] I made him explore the video after this...

Which is my FAV song from this group: Paranoid Android...the guitars are awesome

...This Why Budden & Tahiry Broke Up?

...doubt that's it. I heard she cheated on him...but I think it's funny how pissed off she is, talking like he's not even in the room, then smacking the camera out of his hand.
It was up on youtube then got deleted...I don't give a fick tho...

...Tiger & The Monkey

This is funny. The monkey is a genius!

...Let's Go Shopping With MJ

The downside of being a worldwide superstar since a young age - is never TRULY knowing what it's like to be normal. This video is amusing, but it also made me sad. It's true, NOBODY would be able to maintain composure if in the presence of Michael Jackson...they all turn into screaming "Yes Men" and fans and forget that he is still just a person like the rest of us. With the magnitude of fans he has, a simple task like shopping is an ordeal on a normal day...so lets shut the whole center down bring his friends in "shop" and lets PRETEND this is a normal supermarket...

...Now THAT'S How You Do Shit

They shut down the world of tennis...now they've moved on to bigger and better things like...
...being part owners of an NFL franchise...
Venus & Serena join JLo & Marc Anthony and Gloria & Emilio Estefan as limited ownership partners of the Miami Dolphins. Don't mean they gonna win shit - but it's nice to have people like them supporting them.

I'm gonna need Neffe to learn the words CONTRACEPTIVE or BIRTH CONTROL
...this Soullow nigga better be the end cuz this is NOT cute...
Congrats tho...wish em the best


Leave it To Atlanta to think of this...but if broads can tattoo they eyebrows, men can do whatever they want...Who needs hair club for men...holla @ ya fav artist to shade it all in

I think they're trying to call Caster Semenya a hermaphrodite...CLICK HERE...because her testosterone levels are higher than a regular female...not to mention her muscle definition and husky voice...either that or she's doping up heavy...Hopefully they just prove she's fine and that's just how she was made and accept she kicked all y'all sore losers ass

...Random Song of The Moment

I was singing this song because it was playing when I dropped my car off at the shop for inspection. I like this song actually...I remember this video...Shakira flexible as shit - wish I was that flexible, prolly wouldn't be able to tell me shit...but that's probably why I'm not....smh...

...If Only Our Country Would Learn...

The legalization of Marijuana or HEMP would not only unite the world of stoners...
Everyone is on this whole "Go Green" bullshit
...if hemp was legal it could replace alot of the harmful shit we use now...
If people got off those racist misinformed laws of the 30s and listened to the forefathers who used it and knew it would be the saviour of the country...the world would be a better place.
You can't tell me drugs that you manufactured out of synthetic materials is better for me than the natural plant that could cure 100's of illnesses and makes a helluva lot of people feel so great the world looks brighter without the side effect of nausea, stomach ulcers, and death...
...I WILL be that old lady sending my grandkids or the neighborhood kids to the store to buy whatever method it is I'll use to smoke my piff and all will be well in the world.

...It Doesn't Matter - He Forgives You

Back then they didn't want me - now They hot....I'm just saying

...City Love

Straight outta West Philly, is Che Mack. She hustled her way outta the hood and onto a few videos& magazines tryna get on to bigger and better things. I'm always glad when anybody gets out, so I show love never hate. Today on Twitter [follow her @chemack & the interviewer @iamBEasy] she posted a link with some clips of an interview she did recently with Swaggervision.com.
She says whatever she wants and doesn't apologize for it...but please - no hating on the tatts...
You WISH you could pull off having all of em
She doesn't believe she's famous...but you sure as hell can Google her!

Call me when a fake bitch is 60


West Philly get it in


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...At Your Best You Are Love

8 years ago today we lost a great artist to a fatal plane crash.
Any female would be lying if they didn't try to grow/get hair to swoop it over their eye
You know you tried to rock the boxers with baggy jeans and a sports bra
You WISHED you could tie a regular ass bandanna across your chest and make it fly effortlessly
All her videos I made sure I knew the dances too...probably still know em if I tried
Her void left a space for people like Ciara, Keri Hilson, and even Beyonce make themselves known...
...I remember when I heard she died, I was getting ready to go to church and it scrolled across the TV while my dad was watching MSNBC or CNN...one of those...
Never Forgotten Aaliyah..
...Hope you and Static up there making great music together again...